Some Days... I Feel Rather Like a Beached Whale

'Tis strange being pregnant. This little person growing inside me is constantly changing, growing - and so do I. Some days I feel tired (because there is a little person inside eating up all my calories!!) and some days I feel energetic. Some I feel pretty, some I feel listless and rather ugly. Some times I'm content in whatever clothes I happen to lay hands on, others I cannot find anything comfortable to wear. Some days I feel bright, no matter how ugly/grey/rainy they are, and some days I am dull and "tharn" as my father would say - to quote from a famous childrens' book - no matter how sunny it is out of doors.

I suppose this is simply how a woman feels, generally, but magnified greatly in childbearing. Example: If I have a day wherein I feel "thin" - despite the rounding middle, believe me, there is certainly a difference in a "fat day" and a "thin day!" - I feel absolutely gorgeous and dance through my day like I was a slender willow wand (well, a preggo slender willow wand.) However. If I wake up and am in the midst of a "fat day" - well, I feel rather like a beached whale, tired and bloated and wishing for the cool water of invisibility and relief of my suffering from the oppressive and uncomfortable weight of... my weight. O.o

See! I told you everything gets exaggerated. :P

As for my personal appearance, as long as Husband is content with my present weight of frame - well, then I am, too. The more serious matter (to me) is when I don't have enough energy to complete even a handful of household tasks, in favor of sitting still or sleeping. I've had struggles with laziness in the past, and it is difficult to distinguish laziness from a true need for rest in this new and ever-changing season of pregnancy. The test I have come to devise is to ask myself "Do I have enough energy to do -whatever sounds fun and appealing-?" If the answer is yes, then I know that I am fooling myself into thinking I'm too tired for that which needs doing. If my answer is no, I really have no energy for even the fun thing, I know it's time to rest.

Speaking of which, today (and the last few days) I've been very tired, and I'm ready for a nap! :)

Random note: the windows are open and the honeysuckle vines in the trees behind the house smell thick and sweet and wonderful. So nice.